I have the occasional irrational thought. About my diabetes. And how I really don’t like it sometimes. When it all gets a bit too much, I start wishing on that illusive ‘shooting star’ that it would all just go away.
Late last year we all lived through a day that will go down in history. It was the twelfth day, of the twelfth month, of the two thousand and twelfth year of the world as we know it. I woke up the way I always do on a Wednesday. Ready to take on another day jam-packed with ferrying the kiddies around and working in town. I did my routine BGL check and got this little beauty…
I repeated the test because that sort of perfection in time and diabetes never happens to me and I didn’t believe what I was seeing. I’m telling you; n-e-v-e-r. You see, 5.5 mmol/L is the ‘holy grail’ of living with type 1 diabetes. It is the target BGL that we are all supposed to be achieving. It is the epitome of excellent control and diabetes management. Would you believe, I got the same result again? And all on 12 December, 2012 to boot!
My delicate and hopeful heart went into instantaneous overdrive. What if I just didn’t eat all day? And didn’t move all day? If I stayed in bed, didn’t administer any bolus insulin, eat any carbohydrates or expend any energy, I could stay at 5.5 mmol/L all day, like a healthy person.
And then I snapped myself back into reality. Did I really just say that?!
I am healthy. Yes; I have diabetes. But that does not equate to being unhealthy.
And whose blood sugar stays at 5.5 mmol/L for every second of their existence, anyway?
I’d love to hear from you if yours does!
But until then, I will still go for a frolic in the land of fairytales every now and again. I will dare to dream and take the occasional mental holiday from my diabetes… just to keep me sane.